The Return to Weight Loss Journey

I have been sitting in front of this screen for the past half an hour, trying to figure out how to begin this entry.
It is unbelievable how I have forgotten how to approach this blog or my YouTube channel.

I never thought that I would be away from here for this long, I didn’t even plan on stepping away from here. I actually want to get stuck into my diet and lose more weight and post more about trying to get organised and such. But things happened during last year which made me press the pause button while I sorted those issues out. Then came another issue and then another. 

Along with that, I found that my mental state wasn’t in a place which I was comfortable dealing with, it seemed like everything I did or tried to do failed which made things feel worse for me, I was also trying to deal with my health which was starting to get worse in some areas. Something I wasn’t too happy to admit and with that I was making myself feel very low.

Luckily enough I had my family and my fiance to support me and help me pull my head back above the water. There are still issues that need to be dealt with, but I feel like I am in a state which I can cope with these along with concentrating on working on my weight.

With everything that has gone on last year, it is no surprise that my weight was affected. I was comfort eating and I ended up gaining pretty much all my weight back which I lost the previous year.
Am I sad about this? Yes
Am I surprised by this? No, I knew I would gain some weight back and maybe that was, and is, wrong of me to think that. Maybe if I tried to think positive about keeping the weight off then it could have been different. But I don’t know what would have happened as it is now in the past and I need to focus on the now and the future.
I know what needs to be done, I know what to do, I just need to do it.

I am keeping my goals pretty much the same from when I first began – 

  • 4-5 cups a day
  • eat more fruit and veg
  • eat more seafood and meat free meals on weekdays and meat and poultry on weekends
  • 15 minutes of exercise 3 days a week

I am also adding 2 extra small goals to the list – 

  • don’t eat any biscuits for at least 5 days
  • don’t eat any desserts for at least 5 days (unless the dessert is mixed fruit, then that is ok)

I have been trying to get back into the swing of things, I have made several videos for my channel, but I never felt comfortable with them. I started to do my exercises again, and after the first day my lower half seized up and I was pretty much bed/sofa bound for the rest of the week. 
So what I feel that I need to do before I fully do my 15 minutes is to re introduce myself. 5 minutes a day and then 10, then 15. I am hoping that doing it this way will be easier on my lower half, get my legs moving and re train my body and mind in what I need to do. 
I am not sure if it is hurting me more this time round because I have done this before or if it is because of my health. But I want to play it safe and take it slowly.

I always remembered to do my check ins but never remembered to write them down, either on this blog or for my channel, so I have bought myself a new journal and inside I have set out a place for my check ins, a place for my goals and my inspirations on why I want to lose weight, also a place for me to write how I am feeling with my diet – if I am angry/upset or happy I will write it down in there. I am hoping that this will also help me to concentrate on losing weight as I found out that talking about my check ins did help me to focus on what I needed to do.

Basically, I am going to fight back my weight and make sure that I lose it (again) and continue to lose it.

Weight Loss Journey: Final 2012 Check In

It is coming up the end of 2012 so I wanted to end my weight loss journey here (actually I ended it on the 15th, but there was too much going on around me that I couldn’t blog about it), just so I can enjoy the holidays.

When I first started this I was excited, ready and focused about losing the weight but towards the end I started to feel fed up and bored with it. I don’t know what changed but I just felt like giving up and I wasn’t really giving it my all towards the end, so that is something I need to work on and figure out what may have caused this.
Also I am annoyed with myself for the drinking challenge I set myself (to drink at least 5-6 cups a day), even though I did manage to reach the goal a few times, I just feel that I didn’t really achieve the goal because I wasn’t drinking like that all the time, it was every now and then. So that is something else I am going to carry on for the diet in the new year.
For my exercise, even though I changed the goal from 30 minutes to 15 minutes a day, I feel like I did a brilliant at this. Changing it to 15 minutes made it a lot more comfortable for me, and easier for me to achieve and focus on.

Measurements and Weight Final 2012 Results
This will be the total of how much I have lost since June

Chest – 47 ¼” (- 5 ¼”)
Waist – 47 ¼” (- 6 ¾”)
Hips – 56″ (- ½”)
Weight – 17 stone 3lbs (- 1 stone 11lbs)

(June) Front

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(December) Front

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(June) Sideways

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(December) Sideways

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I am so happy with the results, I know my hips haven’t lost that much, but I have always had trouble with losing anything from that area and so I am pleased to see that I have lost something. That’s all that matters to me, is that I am losing and not gaining weight.
Doing this has helped me feel so much better about myself, made me more confident with my body, I now accept my body for what it is and even look in the mirror without feeling horrible about myself. I am also more confident with what I eat and appreciate food even more.

I am going to carry on with this in the new year and hope that I can lose more weight.

Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and if you celebrate any other holidays around this time of the year, I hope you have a wonderful time.
Have a wonderful and positive new year. 🙂

Weight Loss Journey: Week 25

This weeks measurements and weight

Chest – 47 ¾” (+ ¼”)Waist – 48 ¾” (- 1″)
Hips – 56 ½” (- ½”)
Weight – 17 stone 1lb (- 2lbs)

After my last post me and my partner caught the bug that had been going around our area, you could not keep anything you ate down from both areas, so basically we were both stuck in the bathroom for a few days. I obviously couldn’t do any exercises for fear of upsetting my stomach, there was a plus side to me catching this bug. Fluids. I was drinking so much I must have went over the 6 cup mark which I have wanted to do for a long time, and by me drinking more than usual it did help me to recover at a quicker pace than what I normally am like.

All that time I was finding myself very bored with sitting or lying down and so I made a promise when I got better to go outside for a little bit each day and do some exercise that way. Which I have been doing, taking the dog around the field outside our house, I don’t walk fast anyway, so it has been a nice slow walk which takes up 15 minutes.

I feel very proud of myself for doing this, normally I can only take the dog out probably once every few weeks because of my social phobia, so for me to do a whole week and on my own is incredible and I hope I can continue to do this.

Weight Loss Journey: Week 24 check in

I am sitting here watching some cooking shows on Food Network and it dawns on me that I haven’t posted any update for my weight loss journey… oops…

There is no big excuse on why I haven’t posted on here lately, I just didn’t feel comfortable with writing for a while, that’s it.
As it is close the end of 2012 I wanted to post my last few check ins for this year, to try to make up for the lack of activity on here.

When I last posted (Get Off Your Broom: Fall Fitness Challenge – The Plan, which got cancelled due to the host having some issues), I weighed 17 stone and 7 pounds. Now I weigh 17 stone 3 pounds! So close to losing another stone, I am hoping I can do it but I am not wanting to push myself as the holidays are coming up, so to lose it and then most likely gain some back on would be frustrating for me. But that could give me some extra focus for the new year…

My measurements were:
Chest – 47  ½”
Waist – 48 ¾
Hips – 57 ¼”

and now:
Chest – 47  ½” (no change)
Waist – 49 ¾” (+ 1″)
Hips – 57″ (- ¼”)

Even though my waist has gone up an inch I am really pleased with my current measurements, I havent been keeping check on them either, super pleased with my hip measurements.

Exercise is annoying me at this moment, trying to find a new game or dvd that is suitable for me but that seems to be taking a lot more time that what I wanted, I guess I am wanting to make sure that I buy one I am going to be happy with from my past buying experience.
Drink wise, not that good. Only 4 cups a day… Wanted to be drinking more than that. And for my food habits, they are actually going steady. I am introducing meat & poultry back in to weekly diet due to it getting colder and I find meat/poultry warms me up more than fish does. Only eating meat/poultry once every other day. Another reason why im doing this is in case I come off this diet, I don’t want to feel nervous about what I eat in case its gonna make me gain weight. I want to feel confident that I can eat what I want and yet I can continue to lose weight or stay at a steady weight.

I am going to be putting this diet on pause on 15th December so I can enjoy the holidays, also evaluate and plan for the next year.

Get Off Your Broom: Fall Fitness Challenge – The Plan

Each week the host will be giving us mini challenges which you can do or not do, this weeks challenge is to start your plan.
Your measurements and weight at this moment, what you want to be at the end of the fitness challenge, your goals to help you along the way.
Every Sunday will be the check in so I am hoping to actually check in on time (though, this is me here so the chances of that are not very good).
As it is Sunday I thought it would be better to post my plan now rather than a few days before as this has my current weight and measurements.

Measurements and Weight

Chest – 47  ½”
Waist – 48 ¾
Hips – 57 ¼”

Weight – 17 stone 7 pounds
Goal Weight – 17 stone

I have only set myself a small weight loss goal, purely because it is easier to reach rather than setting myself a goal of losing a stone and at the end not being able to achieve that and feeling a little disappointed. Also I feel that this is a more realistic weight goal for me.

Goals

On Get Off Your Broom, they have said about two versions of setting your goals.
The first is the more traditional way and the other is by using the elements. I am going to be doing both.

  • Drink more fluids (water)
    As you all know by now I have trouble with drinking the right amount of fluids, this is still a big task for me to achieve and I am wanting to try to get somewhere with drinking more, it is taking longer than what I thought but I am still trying which is better than not trying at all.
  • Eat more fruit (earth)
    Last year I didn’t eat any fruit and ate very little vegetables, now I can’t get enough of my veg! Now that I have changed my whole eating diet (meat free *expect for fish* on weekdays and on weekends I eat meat) I do eat a lot more veg. Now the task is to eat more fruit, I am lucky that I eat one bit of fruit a day so I do need to eat more than what I currently am.
  • Exercise 15 minutes a day (fire)
    This is the goal I have currently set myself since June (back then it was 30 minutes a day but found that too difficult for me at the moment), so this is what I am going to continue doing.
  • Eat smaller portions
    This is another goal that I had set myself from last year and I want to add into here again, just because after the last fitness challenge my portions went a little bit back to what they were.
  • Do more tai chi and meditations (air)
    I used to do tai chi and meditate everyday a couple of years ago and I really enjoyed it, somehow I stopped doing this and now I miss doing so. Hoping to bring this back into my routine, which should help me feel less stressed.
  • Write 5 positive things about yourself a day (spirit)
    I saw this posted on SparkPeople and found it interesting so I want to try it out. I think it could help with how I feel about myself, how I think about life, my life and overall just feel better about everything which should help with my health and weight.

That is pretty much all the goals I can think of and feel are the important ones to list at this moment.

Good luck to everyone who is doing this challenge!

Get Off Your Broom: Fall Fitness Challenge

Last year The Domestic Pagan started a fitness challenge which I took part in and lost half a stone, it also opened my eyes to the fact that I really needed to do something about losing this weight more so than before but in a healthy and positive way.

This year she back with the challenge.

I wanted to see how far I could go with losing weight on my own, I have done pretty good so far but I feel I am starting to go off track and so I feel it is perfect timing with this challenge starting. So I’m in and hoping to regain my focus on losing this weight.

If you want to join in, then all you gotta do is click on that image and it will send you straight to the blog telling you all about the challenge.

Weight Loss Journey: Week 9 and 10 check in

Week 9

This week I was curious to see what change would happen to my body if I purely focused on doing housework, which has been mentioned before in magazines that housework is one of the best ways to lose weight. I stopped doing my usual Wii fitness or DVD workout for this.
Now, with saying this it may seem like I don’t do housework, which is not true, I do it all the time but I don’t really put that much effort or think about what I am doing, I just want to get it over and done with as its one area which frustrates me the most for joint pain.

I didn’t really notice a change, but saying that it was only one week so I wasnt expecting anything major but I did feel better with getting the housework sorted out!

I did weigh myself but forgot to measure myself… So, I can’t really show any results for this week. I didn’t lose or gain anything which is always a good thing, the fluids intake I think were about 4 cups.

Week 10

I carried on doing what I had done for week 9, staying away from the Wii and fitness DVDs, I focused more outside doing the gardening than staying indoors. Most of the week was lovely and sunny, which seems to be rare in the UK at the moment so I took advantage of it while I could.
This week I feel so much better than last week, I hardly ever get to go outside and not feel like I am going to have a panic attack and being able to go out every single day felt amazing.

Week 10 Results

Weight – 18 stone (- 1lb)
Chest – 49 ¾” (- ¾“)
Waist – 49 ¼” (+ ¾“)
Hips – 57 ½” (no change)
Fluid – 5 cups

Woo hoo! A stone gone! I’m surprised it was this quick, I thought it would take me a lot longer as it has done in the past, guess I didn’t realise how much I wanted to lose this weight.

There is now a new reason on why I want to lose weight – On the 23rd July, my partner proposed to me and I said yes! We havent got a date for the wedding but thinking it could be within the next 5 years, which gives me enough time to lose more and plan. 🙂